Though I’m known for being lucky, it’s important to remember that there are two kinds of luck. 2012 saw a lot of great luck — the spoils of which will carry over into 2013 — but I’m at a man of extremes, and the other shoes had to drop sometime.
I was planning to come out swinging in 2013 with blogs, new content and a fire that the world hadn’t seen before. 2012 had been ramping up to some serious moves, and I was excited to show what I was capable of!
But then I got sick.
You don’t need to be grievously ill to get thrown off your game; some illnesses, while not life-threatening, can deliver a real blow to your ego and confidence.
So enter — Bell’s Palsy.
Two-Face, or, My Battle With Bell’s
It came out of nowhere — one day I was fine, next thing you know, I’m losing hearing in one ear. Then it turns into an external infection, sharp headaches and on New Year’s Eve, suddenly I can’t move the entire left side of my face.
Over the last few weeks, I’ve been on all sorts of meds trying to kick the sick, but nothing managedseems to stick. (See what I did there?)
Dealing with the bouts of pain and decreased abilities that come with Bell’s has definitely been a challenge, but I’m trying all sorts of methods to win this battle. Doctors, vitamins, facial massages, acupuncture — I don’t take something like this lightly, but we often need to show patience in the face of adversity and just see it through.
Me Sick? That’s UNPOSSIBLE!
Palmers are generally very resilient human beings. My little brother Adrian has survived through countless illnesses in his youth, while my baby brother Brian managed to get into all sorts of trouble and emerged unscathed. Me, I’m rarely sick, never broken any bones, needed surgery or had to go to a hospital outside of volunteer shifts and the odd illness.
So you can imagine how disconcerting it is, being sick with something that sleep and a few extra litres of water just won’t fix.
Being diagnosed with something potentially incurable is never any fun. The waiting. The “will it? won’t it?” thinking that you go through while you’re stuck with the symptoms. Thinking that if you can just get through this one, you’ll make sure it never happens again!
At first, I felt self-conscious about it and didn’t want to speak to anyone. I didn’t want anyone seeing me at anything less than 100%.
But these are the hurdles that we need to overcome in our lives day after day.
“I’m not smart enough.”
“I’m not cool enough.”
“I’m not handsome enough.”
Rock the Bell’s
In its own twisted way, I feel like this has been a lesson in getting over myself. A lesson in getting past my exterior and focusing on becoming better in general. While I’d love to regain full motor control of my face, if it takes weeks, months, or never even heals — I still have a blog to write. A job to do. A life to live with my family and friends.
A facial flaw is not the end of the world.
So while it slowed me down, it’s time for me to get back on my game and do what I came out to do in the first place — create awesome content in 2013!
I’m far from invincible, but Bell’s Palsy ain’t gonna break my stride. 2013’s all about the promise of the future — not dwelling on the troubles that plague us today.
How’s your 2013 looking so far?