Tag: honesty week

Last updated on April 2nd, 2021 at 01:17 am

I hope you’ve enjoyed getting a little look into my mind and the things I’m trying to accomplish. I don’t think any of them will be easy to pull off, but TRYING to make them happen keeps me going and gives me hope that there’s something tangible I can contribute to better the world.

Will I get the help I’d like to make them happen smoothly and quickly? Who knows—someday, maybe. Will these projects actually succeed or are they doomed to fail? Not for me to say. Regardless, the work will be done to take them as far as I can.

Blogging is serious business. Doing it daily, on top of all the other stuff I’ve somehow committed myself to doing in life and everything that’s expected of me—it’s really difficult. But I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

Last updated on April 4th, 2021 at 11:10 am

At the core of my being, I am not a worrier. I like to get things done and get them out of the way. I like to solve problems and make things better. I firmly believe that fussing, fretting and worrying do nothing to accomplish either of these things. It just makes you more anxious and likely to mess up.

But that doesn’t mean that I don’t worry about anything. My ultimate worry is to wind up shuffling off of this mortal coil as “just another name”—that despite all of my efforts, I wasn’t able to make a permanent change to make the world a better place, even if just a little bit. This is the driving force behind why I work so hard on these side pursuits—so that they mean something and aren’t just forgotten as little whimsies I once had.

Last updated on April 3rd, 2021 at 11:38 pm

There’s a lot I want out of life. Some look at my life and figure I should be content: I have a good job, I found the love of my life and I live well. What more could I want?

Turns out—a LOT more.

Last updated on April 5th, 2021 at 11:19 am

One of the better things of Honesty Week has been the honest feedback I’ve been getting from my readers!

A recent comment was that in Day 1, I spoke about the problems I’m facing. Day 2 covered why I need to tackle the issues and some of the constraints behind doing the things I want to do. Day 3 gave some context behind why it’s taken me so long to get a move-on with really dealing with all this stuff.

But WHAT is it that I actually want to do?

Last updated on April 4th, 2021 at 11:09 am

What always slowed me down is the need to be perfect. I was raised to seek nothing but the best. If things were less than perfect, the only person I could hold accountable for a sub-standard way of living was myself. In fact, as a teenager, I sought to be perfect and the best at everything I did SO MUCH that I suffered a crushing nervous breakdown at 16 from the amount of stuff on my plate.

While I don’t think I overburden my schedule NEARLY as much as I did when I was a kid (imagine days of 5:30 am—11 pm, not including the time needed to actually DO my schoolwork), that nagging concept of perfect still hasn’t completely left my mind.