Papier — An Old School Blogger’s Battle with Perfectionism

It’s the same thing every time—sit down, pull out my stack of paper and rifle through it ’til I find something good to write about. Sometimes I come up short. Sometimes I find a gem. I never quite know what I’ll find, but the one thing I know’s that I’ll always wander back to my palace of paper with hundreds of half-formed thoughts waiting to spring to life!

A Slave to My Machinations — What it Takes to Put Out a Post

I’ll probably never escape my process.

Photo by William Iven on Unsplash

The most significant problem of this empire of paper  I’ve built for myself is that it takes so long to transform ideas into posts that at times it feels like I’m not making progress at all.

31 Things I Know Now That I’m 31: #5 — I’m My Own Worst Enemy

If I could figure out what I’m trying to say with the hundreds of draft posts I have, I’d sleep far better at night. I’d schedule them in, get about six months ahead with content, and use the newly found spare time to handle other outstanding work in my life!

But that’s not realistic. I can’t turn my creativity and inspiration on at will, constantly struggling to fill the blanks in my stories, looking for the words that’ll make them sing. It’s a vicious cycle where I only make it partway through my thoughts each night, too tired to bring them to a close, having dance the exhausting productivity waltz with my mind for nights in a row. Then I go through my day, sit down at night, and try to get it together — knowing it’ll take more than I’ve got to give to write something I’ll love.

We all have our decisions to make — how we spend our time, what’s actually important to us — I just hope I’m making the right ones.