So, 220-odd posts in, I’m in a rut. I’m burnt out. And I think it’s time that I get some things off of my chest. In fact, I think it’s time for an HONESTY WEEK.
I think we’re all liars. We ask how someone’s doing, and they tell us “alright” or “okay” in return. We’re lukewarm. We’re noncommittal. We go through our lives day-to-day without any real drive or passion to stake our claim on something in this world.
That’s where I’m at right now.
I know it takes five things to do well in anything: time, skill, effort, luck and PASSION. Out of any of these, I find passion to be the most elusive. How many half-started projects are on my desk? How many times have I tried to create things only to get distracted and leave them for dead?
This needs to stop. Here’s a look at what my desk currently looks like:
I KNOW, RIGHT?! All of that is crap that I have to deal with sooner or later. (Unfortunately, ) I feel that everything is part of a larger whole, whether it be a snazzy website, educational seminars, or a routine to promote better self-health. But as Lester Freamon says in The Wire, “all the pieces matter”.
So what am I gonna do? How do I clear my head of all the things that are overwhelming me and leaving me to run in circles? Will I ever see a day where I can get back to drawing, making charts and graphs and just having FUN with the Internet?
I damn sure hope so.
With an upcoming trip to the cottage, it’ll give me some time to sort through all the crap and figure out how it all fits together. Until then, I need to focus. Attack the pile like a rabid dog. Figure out why I have all the crap that I do and THEN figure out the quickest way to be RID of it all.
Because in all honesty? I don’t even want to CONSIDER the alternative.
–Casey E. Palmer